I'm a teenager, the special age in which a human being starts to be slaved by his heart, and his hormones. The age of tough decisions, of depression and insecurity; or, in others' cases, the age of party and friends.

Since age 12 I have started to think about future, about what I should do, where my destiny should lead; everything calculated, planed. I'm as analytical and thoughtful as ever, and I'm still at times slave of my heart.

What happens when the line between friendship and crush is crossed. When you think you know everything about this person, but never really thought if you knew yourself enough. When you are her friend, support her and really wish for her to have a better future; when you see her potential, and don't want such a beautiful person to be lost in life.

What happens when you know, that relationships aren't for you; when you know that this is the age for education, to really set foot on your road to a better future, that relationships are for later. But still can't bear the sight of her in the arms of a guy. When your mind blows away, and your heart loses control; while you do your best to hold it, to avoid any stupid move.

I can hardly imagine anyone with such a difficult mind-heart struggle. Being in a crush while knowing it was a meaningless teenage thing, that it would soon go away and that it was a simply ridiculous impossibility. That didn't stop me from writing poems, and fantasize happiness. Little by little I managed to get over that, and now I fall into another hole.

Such a disappointing feeling, to fall in love with a person you considered out of limits; someone you told yourself you shouldn't even consider about in such a way, and realize you simply couldn't.

Now I won't be able to see her the way I used to, not even sure I'll stand looking at her. Knowing that friendship is no more than an illusion I'm providing her, because my heart was hiding me something. Such an awkward feeling, such a silent sorrow. Fighting to keep your mouth shut, while the heart pumps. I battle my heart, but he has the upper hand.

Would be such a joy if I was able to rip out my heart and put it on a table. To enjoy day as the usual me, and put it back at night; when my feelings can freely roam without fear of any stupidity. Would be such joy, to take my heart out and talk with him, to tell him directly not to mess with me so cruelly. Nothing but a fantasy, I just have the option to hold my feelings tightly and be careful to not let them out. Because it's not appropriate, it is not.

Anyone shares my sorrow? I know what I have to do, I know my situation and know my limits. Just want to share something with you, you people are special for me.

My heart vs Me, he knocked me down on third round.

I'm a teenager, the special age in which a human being starts to be slaved by his heart, and his hormones. The age of tough decisions, of depression and insecurity; or, in others' cases, the age of party and friends.

Since age 12 I have started to think about future, about what I should do, where my destiny should lead; everything calculated, planed. I'm as analytical and thoughtful as ever, and I'm still at times slave of my heart.

What happens when the line between friendship and crush is crossed. When you think you know everything about this person, but never really thought if you knew yourself enough. When you are her friend, support her and really wish for her to have a better future; when you see her potential, and don't want such a beautiful person to be lost in life.

What happens when you know, that relationships aren't for you; when you know that this is the age for education, to really set foot on your road to a better future, that relationships are for later. But still can't bear the sight of her in the arms of a guy. When your mind blows away, and your heart loses control; while you do your best to hold it, to avoid any stupid move.

I can hardly imagine anyone with such a difficult mind-heart struggle. Being in a crush while knowing it was a meaningless teenage thing, that it would soon go away and that it was a simply ridiculous impossibility. That didn't stop me from writing poems, and fantasize happiness. Little by little I managed to get over that, and now I fall into another hole.

Such a disappointing feeling, to fall in love with a person you considered out of limits; someone you told yourself you shouldn't even consider about in such a way, and realize you simply couldn't.

Now I won't be able to see her the way I used to, not even sure I'll stand looking at her. Knowing that friendship is no more than an illusion I'm providing her, because my heart was hiding me something. Such an awkward feeling, such a silent sorrow. Fighting to keep your mouth shut, while the heart pumps. I battle my heart, but he has the upper hand.

Would be such a joy if I was able to rip out my heart and put it on a table. To enjoy day as the usual me, and put it back at night; when my feelings can freely roam without fear of any stupidity. Would be such joy, to take my heart out and talk with him, to tell him directly not to mess with me so cruelly. Nothing but a fantasy, I just have the option to hold my feelings tightly and be careful to not let them out. Because it's not appropriate, it is not.

Anyone shares my sorrow? I know what I have to do, I know my situation and know my limits. Just want to share something with you, you people are special for me.

My heart vs Me, he knocked me down on third round.

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Why can't school be balanced with a girlfriend? Why can't you try for more with her? What's so great about her boyfriend? What's he got that you don't have? Is he as good as you even? Is he good for her?

Why can't school be balanced with a girlfriend? Why can't you try for more with her? What's so great about her boyfriend? What's he got that you don't have? Is he as good as you even? Is he good for her?

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wow, andres! Wow!

You really touched my soul, friend...
Sucha hard battle inside you...
After reading this, a few questions went through my mind: does she deserve your inner thoughts? does she deserve this battle? does she deserve this energy lose?

wow!......The same time, I think you'reb getting too complicated....Nothing compares to teen life, yes.....I know, but you should consider that love should mix with study...this his charming....not having time for both, trying to have them both....hahahahahaha....


would like to know more, andres.

wow, andres! Wow!

You really touched my soul, friend...
Sucha hard battle inside you...
After reading this, a few questions went through my mind: does she deserve your inner thoughts? does she deserve this battle? does she deserve this energy lose?

wow!......The same time, I think you'reb getting too complicated....Nothing compares to teen life, yes.....I know, but you should consider that love should mix with study...this his charming....not having time for both, trying to have them both....hahahahahaha....


would like to know more, andres.

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Thanks for your words, Maria and Mio.

School being balanced with a girlfriend. It could be, but not for me, not in my kind of school, not in the environment I live in. I want to leave that for when I go to college, perhaps Canada, been thinking about it lately.

What can I give her as a boyfriend I couldn't as a friend? She has her worries in life, at home; no need for me to complicate things for her with such things as a teenager crush.

And, that's my point. My problem is not the fact she has fallen in love with a guy, it's her life and I have nothing to do with it. What I condemn is the fact I actually care so much, that my heart has thrown a friendship out the window, for a selfish crush. That my heart has played a bad joke on me. It's not a rant of having lost her, it's a rant of having lost myself.

Thanks for your words, Maria and Mio.

School being balanced with a girlfriend. It could be, but not for me, not in my kind of school, not in the environment I live in. I want to leave that for when I go to college, perhaps Canada, been thinking about it lately.

What can I give her as a boyfriend I couldn't as a friend? She has her worries in life, at home; no need for me to complicate things for her with such things as a teenager crush.

And, that's my point. My problem is not the fact she has fallen in love with a guy, it's her life and I have nothing to do with it. What I condemn is the fact I actually care so much, that my heart has thrown a friendship out the window, for a selfish crush. That my heart has played a bad joke on me. It's not a rant of having lost her, it's a rant of having lost myself.

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no need to sorrow because of your heart, you should be having fun, not complicate so much, andres....you're so young for having this type of problem....concentrate on what you like best, on what makes you happy, think in perspective and not for the moment.....I know you're wise....so be you!

no need to sorrow because of your heart, you should be having fun, not complicate so much, andres....you're so young for having this type of problem....concentrate on what you like best, on what makes you happy, think in perspective and not for the moment.....I know you're wise....so be you!

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by going away it will not solve the problem but only postpond it for sometime.you encounter each problem as it comes by each day,dont forward it coz the next day will have its own troubles.feelings are natural and fighting them will only bring harm to ourselves.
i dont believe that relationship can retard someone from leaning and gaining good grades.when focused you can balance the two and still make it.evryone needs appriciation,she needs to know you love her so you can stop hurting yourslf with fantercies.go 4 both,dont run away!!!!!!!

by going away it will not solve the problem but only postpond it for sometime.you encounter each problem as it comes by each day,dont forward it coz the next day will have its own troubles.feelings are natural and fighting them will only bring harm to ourselves.
i dont believe that relationship can retard someone from leaning and gaining good grades.when focused you can balance the two and still make it.evryone needs appriciation,she needs to know you love her so you can stop hurting yourslf with fantercies.go 4 both,dont run away!!!!!!!

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ya i agree wit nicholas she should know hw much u love her tht wil atleast u sm satisfaction andres der is still life ahead jst dont give up me too had faced such u prob n u no well hw was it anyways u r 1 best dudes i hv ever met i m sure u will hv a happy life later

ya i agree wit nicholas she should know hw much u love her tht wil atleast u sm satisfaction andres der is still life ahead jst dont give up me too had faced such u prob n u no well hw was it anyways u r 1 best dudes i hv ever met i m sure u will hv a happy life later

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Oh, don't be so hard on yourself Andres. Enjoy your feelings. They're a wonderful part of life. Nothing selfish or wrong about them. You're over-thinking this which is what intelligent people like yourself tend to do.

Oh, don't be so hard on yourself Andres. Enjoy your feelings. They're a wonderful part of life. Nothing selfish or wrong about them. You're over-thinking this which is what intelligent people like yourself tend to do.

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Andres, Andres, Andres ! I never thought you would be such a passionate man.

But thats a nice thing to be, its nice to passionate than to be a heartless man.

Its completly normal my friend, all you have to do is to set your heart free and let its desire be fulfilled.

Because with such a stress you will not be able to study or be you, because your heart is you, its doing what its suppose to do.

So be FREE...FREE...FREE...FREE...FREE...FREEEEEE my Andres cause atimes our minds are a little selfish.

Andres, Andres, Andres ! I never thought you would be such a passionate man.

But thats a nice thing to be, its nice to passionate than to be a heartless man.

Its completly normal my friend, all you have to do is to set your heart free and let its desire be fulfilled.

Because with such a stress you will not be able to study or be you, because your heart is you, its doing what its suppose to do.

So be FREE...FREE...FREE...FREE...FREE...FREEEEEE my Andres cause atimes our minds are a little selfish.

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