Interests
  Birth was my first sin, be here, to cry, with my scream silence tear... Life was my second sin, just live, mock this world, my opinions give... Love was my third sin, to care, just worship her, how did I dare... Questioning was my fourth sin, raise doubt, my mind use, see no reasons when look out... Rebellion was my fifth sin, my own rules make, refuse to obey, not orders from others to take... Arrogance is my sixth sin, to my own sins list, to think I know, believe my own sins see in life's mist... I will still have many sins, my own pride I will fall, I will regret most, hope redemption before death call... Death will be my last sin, to surrender and die, just release my life, to darkness and oblivion fly...    Alone in this world So cold and broken inside. I cry and I scream But no one ever cares. So tired of crying And tired of hurting I can't go on I'm so alone in this world.    Dear God, Here's anther prayer telling you again How life is unfair I'm another non-believer I doubt you're even there You never took away my pain or wiped away my tears Every prayer I ever sent I never got a reply I was never folded in angel's wings When I started to cry When life started getting tough You were never there Your people are suffering on Earth And you don't even care Where was my guardian angel When I wanted to die? How come when I prayed for help I never got a reply You gave me a broken soul, And I can not believe in someone who is supposed to be by my side and never leave Well, now I'll end this prayer and I won't bother you again Because I don't believe in you Thanks for the pain, Amen !!  In the darkness, no one can see your tears, in the darkness, no one can see your fears, in the darkness, there is no one to love you, in the darkness, there is only sorrow with you. To seek and found a reason to be, to hunt like a hound, your destiny to see. My only love, once found, now lost, for my cowardice, that was the cost. Inside my heart, to pieces, I am shattered, all those pieces, in darkness, now scattered. To seek end in the dark, it is my destiny, to weep alone in the dark, it is my destiny, to die all alone without your love, it is my destiny. 
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Favorite Music
 Watch as this tear falls into empty space See it fall into life's nameless place Can you see the sparkle as it catches the light That sparkle once was happiness that is no longer in sight As it falls watch it, its color has changed From blue to bright red, it has a wide range There it goes all alone, it continues to fall With it, it takes the emotion, the emotion of all Wait, can you hear it? A sob has broke free Has shook the lungs cold, but yet it continues to be Here it comes, a force has been built between the eye A wall of shear water, it's now time to cry  Favorite Song  | .
All NIGHTWISH Song | | 100% | All SIRENIA
Song | | 100% | ERA | | 100% | All AMAZON
Song | | 100% | I always like
Metal ROck | | 100% | CHLIDREN OF
BODOM | | 85% | MURDER
DOLLS, | | 75% |
mrrock | Dreams of Darkness "I see demonic shadows, floating in the darkness, waiting me to fall a sleep, searching a moment of my weakness... Shadows of death, inside my head, this outstanding pain, in my brain... Flames of hellfire, in my eyes, smell of death, in my nose... Molten seas of hell, this demonic smell, someone is casting a dark spell, holding me in the hell...
 30 Seconds to Mars After forever Alesena Alice In Chain's Greatest Hits All That Remains Amazon Amon amarth Amorphis Anathema Angtoria Apocaliptica Apostolum Arcana Arthemesia Avantasia Avenged Sevenfold Avril Lavigne Blackmore's Night Blind Guardian Bullet For My Valentine Children Of Bodom Crematory Crimson Tears Dargaard Darkness Dawn Of Dreams Deafening Silence DEEP PURPLE Deftones Deine Lakaien Devildriver Diary of dreams Do or die Dover Downset Dreamlike Horror Dry Kill Logic Elend Empirium Epica Era Enigma Evanescence Graveworm Gregorian H.I.M I killed the prom queen Ingwee malmsteem Inkubus Sukkubus Judas Priest Kamelot katatonia Klaxons Lacrimosa Lacuna Coil Leaves' Eyes LED ZEPPELIN Lunatica Mago De Oz Megadeth melodium Moonspell motley crue murderdolls My dying bride Mystic-Force Necromantia Nemesea Nightwish Opeth Ophelia's Dream Other Overkill Pantera Positively Dark Queens of the Stone Age Rob Zombie Sepultura Slow Release Simple Plan Sirenia slayer Sonata Arctica Sopor Aeternus Suicide Silence Van Helsing SYSTEM OF A DOWN Tarja The Birthday Massacre The Haunted THE OLD DEAD TREE The Rasmus The Tiger Lillies The vision Bleak Theatre Of Tragedy THERION Trail of Tears Tristania Trivium Velcra Within temptation Wolfmother yellowcard more & more wid all there album...xD 
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Favorite TV Shows
  Once I had a dream And this is it Once there was a child`s dream One night the clock struck twelve The window open wide Once there was a child`s heart The age I learned to fly And took a step outside Once I knew all the tales It`s time to turn back time Follow the pale moonlight Once I wished for this night Faith brought me here It`s time to cut the rope and fly Fly to a dream Far across the sea All the burdens gone Open the chest once more Dark chest of wonders Seen through the eyes Of the one with pure heart Once so long ago The one in the Big Blue is what the world stole from me This night will bring him back to me Fly to a dream...  World
of Fake Swallowed up In a make-believe
lake
you can't be real In a World of Fake Metal minds No flesh and bone We have no hearts Only silicone Shallow and numb We can't feel Superficial Never real Killing ourselves To keep up with style Our rubber skin And plastic smiles We don't speak true Only spread lies And sing monotone To cardboard skies It can't go on Like dolls we break And all will burn In our World of Fake   Love, it's just meant for others, there's no love in life, only sorrow, world full of darkness and tears... Hope, it's just meant for others, there's no hope in life, only pain, world full of sorrow and despair...
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Favorite Books
  I stare to the madness, I see just my pain,
it staring me back, drowning me in the sadness...
My tears flow, blinding me, just for vain,
for no reason, my mind falling to the emptiness...
I stare in the mirror, once again,
I see my eyes, I see mirrors of madness...
This night Rays of light, last in the sky, with descending sun, soon to die... Diving behind horizon, light just disappear, from the darkness reaching out, shadows appear... Dark shadows, lurking out to hunt and eat, children of the dark, soon biting mortal meat... Loud screams of desperation and pain, echoing for dead ears, just dying in vain... This night, demons will have feast, this night, world is for the beast...   
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Favorite Quote
 Smile, it's just meant for others, there's no smile for me, only anger, world full of sadness and hatred... World, it's just meant for others, there's no world for me, only isolation, place full of fear and frustration... The Silence Of Light"This World Really Hurts..By MRROCK FARDEEN "
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Journal
SLOW TEARS I look up as a tear rolls slowly
down my cheek
I think about better days
and wonder if I'll feel that way again
you look at me
with those eyes I know so well
always serious, so deep and insightful
as though you're always in control
But not today
not now
Now you look so scared
like for once you don't have the answer
I gaze at you
looking deep into those hazel eyes
Hoping to understand
why you've said those things you did
I wonder for a moment
if this is all a dream
if I shall wake in the morning
and be relieved
you look at me
with a confusion I have never seen
slowly pull me towards you
and wipe the tears from my cheek
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